Our beautiful lighthouse is cover in snow and ice and looking pretty cold. I cannot wait for Spring to get here. We had a little tease on Tuesday. Temperatures in the 40's and sun shining. Wednesday we woke to snow and freezing rain. Yuck.

Mark is working again. This is good because it means he is healthy enough to work and we need the money. Of course, this means I am alone with the kids for two weeks at a time. I have been having a very difficult time. Having my mom pass away makes me feel like I have lost 50 people out of my life instead of just one. My younger brother has been very distant lately. I have a theory as to who and why I am not hearing from him as much. Losing that closeness has been a major blow.

We are now getting pressure from Mark's family to move to their town. I am totally against it. Mark will still be on the road but I will be completely removed from all that I know and all my friends and support. I know my knitting group only meets once a week but I can bring my kids and it is truly a life support. Plus, I LOVE the school my children go to and do not want to take them from that. I also have the Mothers of Preschoolers group that I am a member of and I am also on the Steering Committee. These things are important to me and I feel that up and leaving these things and not gaining anything in return will take my depression to an even lower low. I struggle now but at least I have things that force me to leave the house and actually look forward to. Yes, Mark's family would be there..................

I am praying for a miracle because I don't think Mark is really listening to me about this. He wants to know that if I need something while he is on the road the help would be in the same town not two hours away. Still, he needs to actually listen to what I have to say about this. I am the one at home all the time. He is here twice a month, therefore I think my needs need to be met first.

In other news... Really it has just been a sea of days that consist of running the kids to school and trying to survive. We've been sick for the last month and have been combating a cough that just doesn't want to go away. I recommend you check out my knitting blog for other news and some great patterns I recently finished. Click HERE!